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The picture itself is a vent piece, and doesn't contain anything bad, but the reason behind this drawing and it's meaning could be seen as ideologically sensitive to most, so take caution as I explain the meaning behind this!
!!!----WARNING FOR ABUSE MENTION----!!!
Okay, so to some of my close friends and immediate family it's known that my mom is an emotionally manipulative and abusive person, specifically to me since I have been the person to be in her immediate grasp other than my stepfather, who also isn't the best person. I've gotten the most abuse from her, while my older brother is a close second. My oldest on the other hand, has gotten next to NO abuse or even a sign of it's existence, as he's a sheltered child who has been protected all his life from ANYTHING remotely bad, conceivably making him the most naive to the rest of the world compared to me and my other brother.
Now, both of them have also done a number on me, the oldest with no consequences and the brother just a tad older than me getting a lot of flack for it, especially compared to our older brother. It's obvious though that my oldest brother and my mother have done the most to me, my mother taking the cake on that game of who could fuck me up the most of them.
As for me and what I have done to deserve the shit I've gotten? In actuality, I've done nothing to deserve any of it. Sure, I could deserve a nagging once in a while for just being a depressed mess with no motivation to do things like schoolwork or clean my room, but I have not deserved to be literally backed into corners and gaining a fear of anyone coming from behind me, especially while I'm sitting down for fear of getting whacked over the head with a colander, even if that specific event has only happened once.
As of now, I'm okay with coming clean about it, my only problem is I struggle to report it to officials, as my brothers are both on disability, and one cannot live on his own. I probably shouldn't give as much of a shit about them as I do, but I'm the only one who's been irreversibly fucked up by our mother, while they've gotten along quite alright, and one's gotten off perfectly. I also fear getting put into foster care, especially when friends and loved ones can easily take me into custody with them where I will more than likely be safe, and my cat will be as well. I fear that the social services will not allow this in my state, and I will lose any semblance of what I cared for to possibly be thrown into another shitty home where it could be a lot worse than my mother could have been.
To those who actually read this shit, answer me this. She's calmed down now(which I fear will make her blow up worse, especially because she still is on high stress), but should I wait for her to blow up? Should I wait until I am 18 and run away from the home then, since she can't make me go back there once I'm that age? Should I report now, while I can? What do you think I should do, as someone who's either a victim of the same abuse, a different form, or not even a victim, but a bystander to it or someone who knows little on what they're talking about? Your opinion still matters regardless, I wanna hear everyone who CAN give an opinion's said opinion on my situation!
!!!----END OF WARNING----!!!
Art and character designs are mine, but this is mildly based off of Rostilgi's piece of a similar theme! (If you want me to take this down, let me know and I gladly will!)
The character on the left should be an easy guess by the description, while the one on the right is my fursona.
Song this is also based off of is 'Runs in The Family' by Amanda Palmer
NOTE: I've made it so you can't download it for a reason! This is a VERY personal vent piece about a VERY personal part of my life I'm only willing to open up on. This has ties to emotional and mental child abuse, and must not be taken lightly. Please understand this.
!!!----WARNING FOR ABUSE MENTION----!!!
Okay, so to some of my close friends and immediate family it's known that my mom is an emotionally manipulative and abusive person, specifically to me since I have been the person to be in her immediate grasp other than my stepfather, who also isn't the best person. I've gotten the most abuse from her, while my older brother is a close second. My oldest on the other hand, has gotten next to NO abuse or even a sign of it's existence, as he's a sheltered child who has been protected all his life from ANYTHING remotely bad, conceivably making him the most naive to the rest of the world compared to me and my other brother.
Now, both of them have also done a number on me, the oldest with no consequences and the brother just a tad older than me getting a lot of flack for it, especially compared to our older brother. It's obvious though that my oldest brother and my mother have done the most to me, my mother taking the cake on that game of who could fuck me up the most of them.
As for me and what I have done to deserve the shit I've gotten? In actuality, I've done nothing to deserve any of it. Sure, I could deserve a nagging once in a while for just being a depressed mess with no motivation to do things like schoolwork or clean my room, but I have not deserved to be literally backed into corners and gaining a fear of anyone coming from behind me, especially while I'm sitting down for fear of getting whacked over the head with a colander, even if that specific event has only happened once.
As of now, I'm okay with coming clean about it, my only problem is I struggle to report it to officials, as my brothers are both on disability, and one cannot live on his own. I probably shouldn't give as much of a shit about them as I do, but I'm the only one who's been irreversibly fucked up by our mother, while they've gotten along quite alright, and one's gotten off perfectly. I also fear getting put into foster care, especially when friends and loved ones can easily take me into custody with them where I will more than likely be safe, and my cat will be as well. I fear that the social services will not allow this in my state, and I will lose any semblance of what I cared for to possibly be thrown into another shitty home where it could be a lot worse than my mother could have been.
To those who actually read this shit, answer me this. She's calmed down now(which I fear will make her blow up worse, especially because she still is on high stress), but should I wait for her to blow up? Should I wait until I am 18 and run away from the home then, since she can't make me go back there once I'm that age? Should I report now, while I can? What do you think I should do, as someone who's either a victim of the same abuse, a different form, or not even a victim, but a bystander to it or someone who knows little on what they're talking about? Your opinion still matters regardless, I wanna hear everyone who CAN give an opinion's said opinion on my situation!
!!!----END OF WARNING----!!!
Art and character designs are mine, but this is mildly based off of Rostilgi's piece of a similar theme! (If you want me to take this down, let me know and I gladly will!)
The character on the left should be an easy guess by the description, while the one on the right is my fursona.
Song this is also based off of is 'Runs in The Family' by Amanda Palmer
NOTE: I've made it so you can't download it for a reason! This is a VERY personal vent piece about a VERY personal part of my life I'm only willing to open up on. This has ties to emotional and mental child abuse, and must not be taken lightly. Please understand this.
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